I looked outside the window pane.
The cool breeze froze my soul,
It reminded me of your touch.
The beautiful smell of wet earth choked me,
It reminded me of your scent.
The touch of water parched my body,
It reminded me of your tears.
The sounds of the drops deafened me
I could hear you call out for me in them.
Dark clouds were a relief,
Thunder, music to the ears and
Lightening felt like a ray of forgotten hope.
Stop it. This laughter.
It makes me want to cry.
Stop it. Those tears.
They make me want to die.
The outer me flawless.
The inner me, lifeless……